Confused Confession

Its getting worse and worse
when i open my eyes you disappear ...
I believe i've lost you
even if you were never mine
the only thing i own
are those thoughts that bother me about you
so far but close to my heart
the part that overtook my soul
was your innocence
so much love
full of compassion
you are the one who realized something
inside me
i wish this essence
of thou beauty shall never fade
you always been a Myth to me
that i never owned ....